Ruth's Story
by Ruth
January 1997, I was 19 and in my second year of college. I was dating guy and we were getting pretty serious but I had this nagging feeling that something was wrong. More specifically, somehow I "knew" I was pos. I don't know why I had this feeling, but I kept thinking back to my senior year in high school. I dated a guy for awhile and lost my virginity to him. We only had sex without a condom once, and after that I never had unprotected sex again. But that one time always loomed in the back of my mind. Ok, back to 1997 … I talked to my boyfriend about my "feeling" and he sort of shrugged it off. A few months later when the feeling kept getting stronger he suggested we both go in and get tested. April 1997 … we went to get our results together. He went in first, came out a few minutes later and said everything was fine. But, obviously, my luck wasn't as good. You all know the rush of emotion this news brings so I won't go into it here. I still don't know why I had that "feeling" or where it came from. I was not in any high-risk groups. No drugs, unprotected sex one time, small town girl, what are the chances? Better than everyone thinks apparently.
Anyway, that is the story of me becoming pos … I know I left out a lot … just didn't want to make this too long. That was over 3 years ago and it's amazing how well I can still remember every detail and emotion.
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